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Goin' Crazy
Thursday, February 4, 2010
 I don't get what you want from me . Well , wait before that , this post , is 'dedicated' to you .I don't get what you want from me . ( haha , it's stupid that I repeated it ) I mean , you say , hell yeah , I can go for other guys , who are WAY better than you , you claimed . But till now , you kept calling me EVERY SINGLE NIGHT , just like how it used to be when we were together . And , I don't understand . I mean , How can I Forget you when the fact is clear that I CAN'T . And , uh , you keep expressing those words to me . And all . I don't get what you want . I don't understand . Come on , quit playing games . White flags up ! I don't wanna play this game if I can't play it my way . Straight to the point honey . Don't go around beating around the bush . One way or another , i'll never get to read your fucking damn mind . Whatever .  And I'm afraid I might lose myself along the way . I'm really afraid . I might look happy , laughing away but not even one single person knows what's going through inside . Well , except for Orange of course , but still . I mean , i'm tired . for once , let 2010 be a year that I can remember all my life . I wanna be happy . HAPPY . I know it's impossible to be happy everysingle second but at least , let majority of my life be filled with laughters and smiles . Instead of sorrow , hurt , anger , revenge , tears . There's only ONE person , who can make me happy . But I shan't reveal anything . I think Orange might know . Sigh . Every single day is a torture since you're gone. Darn it . I'm tired of being exhausted . Lifeless. Even mum agrees . " Asal ngan kau dik ? Muke pun dah hilang seri . Balik asyik kurung jek dalam bilik . Makan sikit pon taknak . Tak habis2 mengeluh . Balik dengan muke tak bermaya . Asal ni ? " The exact words that Mummy said . Sigh sigh sigh . I don't know what else to say . I'm at loss for words .  ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- No matter how irritating they can get , and how furious I can be of their actions and childisness , they are still the best I've ever known . And I love them to the damn max .     So today , brought pratas and hotdogs to school . Beatbox session again with loves during assembly . LOL . Fun fun , but I'm getting tired of it . But still , never fail to make me laugh . Well , had Malay Lit , ate Curry Puff thruout . And I really ate alot today . Chem test next . Woah tell me about it . I wasn't even close to knowing Chemistry beneath the surface . Oh don't get me going . It's TOTALLY , a major dis-as-ter . THen had maths , Oh , I swear the teacher felt like killing me . HAHA . I was a total jerk during Math . LOL . I mean , I tolerated enough with the class and her . I can't go on like this lah . Like what they say in Singlish , " I keep quiet you make noise , I noisy you make noise " Haha . Well I know I went overboard saying things I shouldn't But im a girl who has problems controlling her anger and I dare you to change me .......... OVER MY DEAD BODY . No one change me and it stays that way . Math lesson turns out to be a buffet session . With Prata , Hotdogs and Fried Rice on the mennuuuuuuu . Delicious . Then Recess . Stayed In class with Izzy , Zaki , Guan Texk and Tikhun which was surprisingly FUN . Physics then . Eerfan was actually hafiz's ex-schoolmate . What a small world ! LOL . Then , uhm , had , CME . Got Math test back and I swear it was a major turnoff for the day . LOL . Haha . But I don't freaking care . Break then . Headed down with Miranda and Izzy . Love these two so much . Had fun ,t alking , making songs and whatever you name it . Haha . Mother Tongue . WAS SLEEPY . So I slept , I don't know how the hell , can AISYAH , sleep in MALAY LANGUAGE lessons . Pathetic ngok ! Haha . VERY RARE . but TRUE . Haha . Soundly sleeping when the vibration of my phone and not forget ringtone woke me up . haha . This number kept on calling . texted , who ? It was Eerfan ^^ . Went toilet with marlina Dearest and then talked on the phone . :D He promised to call tonight . But I'm lazy lah . See lah how . Then yadayada . WEnt Canteen , ate Mee Soto with Hakim . Then , went for dance practice . YEAY ! We managed to complete almost everything but sadly , we have ALOT of things to do . ALOT , i mean it . HAHA . Dance like mad , ,haha . Went home at about 5 with Sulaiha . At the busstop , got a call from this idk number . Haha . It was eerfan . Haha . Again , i was shocked . Hehe . Sanggup eh kau call pakai nombor kawan . So haha , i was happy ^^ . Irritating sia you eerfan . Serious. I jumpe you ............ Hehe , kasi suspense . Mepek . Lol . Went home . Fetched Ain . Here I am . Cross country tmr . I need hotcakes . Haha . Friends know what I mean . ^^ And maybe meeting Eerfan , cause West Coast is like nearby to Kent Ridge Sec .. So we'll see how . Now I'm going in my room . I have alot to settle . Tasks : Yes yes , I'm leading Jaguar again this year . Oh no . Im going nuts . I NEED SLEEP . PRONTO . SLEEP . SLEEP . SLEEP . ZZZ. CIAO ! Cinta , terasa ada . |